i usually share happy things on this blog, partially because that’s my nature and partially because my belief is that people don’t want to read negative stuff. i personally prefer positive posts when it comes to blog-reading – although i don’t think people should pretend that life is perfect, it is tiring [and a moodkill] to hear people complain all the time.
we all know, though, that life isn’t all sunshine and roses, and for the sake of keeping this blog real, i will inform you that i have been facing a few challenges lately [some more minor than others], hence the lack of posts. specifically:
1. i’ve been battling what could be the f-word – no, not THAT f-word! dirty mind! – the one that starts with “f” and ends with “lu.” yeah, you know, the one that everyone and their dog also seem to be battling right now. and though i can’t use it as too much of an excuse for not blogging since it just snuck up on me a couple days ago, it’s definitely set me back a little. for example, i went to bed at 6:20 pm last night and slept until my alarm went off at 6:20 this morning. and it’s forcing me to eat chicken noodle soup and oranges and drink 20 cups of hot tea a day [as if i didn’t already do that]. oh yeah, and eat ice cream for breakfast, because that’s what you’re supposed to do when you have the flu, right? [clearly it’s not the stomach flu.] anyway, this is the 3rd or 4th time that i’ve gotten sick this winter, which is UNHEARD of for me. so. needless to say, not a happy camper.
2. work has been extremely busy lately and stressful at times, though not necessarily in a bad way, because i love my job and i honestly love working. it’s challenging and rewarding and keeps me on my toes at all times. i’m gradually getting more and more responsibilities, and i spend more evenings working than i used to, but thankfully, it’s what i want to be doing. not something bad, just a time-suck these days.
3. but. what is really on my mind is papa. my mother’s dad, the only grandpa that i have left. we recently found out that he has cancer. it’s in his lymph nodes, his liver, his colon, and possibly other places. in just a month or two, he’s gone from being normal to being very sick. he’s in pain [though he’s thankfully on pain meds] and was just admitted to the hospital yesterday. it makes me so sad that this man who so loved to eat has no appetite and who was always someone obstinate is now so docile. i’ve never seen him like this before, and everything happened so fast. the prognosis isn’t good. it makes me sick, how cancer can completely take over your body. and sometimes, there’s just nothing that anyone can do.
in the hardest of times, it is more difficult to find the happy things in life at a given moment, so that is what i am trying to focus on right now. i’m glad to have this little blog to document them, so even if it is peppered by moments of sadness, this is a sanctuary for good things as well. and above all, we have to trust in the Lord, that He will get us through every challenge we face in life, no matter how great.
any prayers for papa and my family would be greatly appreciated.